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September 02

I know for certain that it is time for me to get that dream apartment, hopefully near the shore.

I went to visit with my mother yesterday and really did have a good visit. I brought two sinful deserts and a plant. I caught her just as she was finishing lunch. She was pushing her walker and looked oh so weary. For whatever reason her assisted living apartment looked exactly as I imagined it. It is lovely. While I was with her another resident came to the door. She was a lovely woman who was questioning cleaning/laundry service. She seemed to have all her marbles, but as my mother tried to joke with her, this lovely woman just did not seem to get the humor. I know my mother misses the humor from my father. I could see it in her face.

After the woman left we dove into the desert. I was sitting across a small table from her remembering how we always had tea and a chat after I would return from high school. She spoke with me about things she is now giving away to family members. She has this large antique chest that my daughter Kate was interested in. She gave Kate permission to have it. The chest contained some linens but also some love letters to my mother from my father during WWII. So much of my dad's writings were cut out for security reasons. I am thinking now that I would love to see those letters. I am thrilled that my mom got to see them again. My father fell in love with my mother from the time they met. So much of my mother's life seems to be coming full circle. I could sense that she was winding down after a time and left knowing that I will be able to see her again soon.

During my visit with my mom, I mentioned a pastel that I had done for my dad years ago that he loved and hung in the living room. No one would ever want that pastel and I asked her if I could take it to give to Rich. Of course she said yes. I went to her home and took the picture and drove to the nursing home to give it to Rich as I just knew that he would appreciate and love it. For the first time I did not get lost getting to that nursing home. TAA!! DAA!!

Having my car at this rest home is the only thing that is keeping me sane. The owner of this place was here today. I had quite a headache this morning and took some medicine. Hours later I went to a meeting and was pretty sick to the point of leaving early. When I returned, the owner had words with me. Either give up the migraine medicine or give up the car. I was stunned. My answer was, "Take the medicine." If I give up my car, I believe my spirit will suffer. I am contacting anyone with ears to help me find that one bedroom apartment (err) near the shore. It is out there and it is calling my name. I have done as much as I can to strengthen my legs and I have gone as far as I can. I am far enough along to live on my own.

I have two space friends in my state who I am certain will help me out. It is time for me to take my life back. My boys at Embassy House are on the alert. It really is "Feet don't fail me now." I am looking at October 1st to be back on my own. I know how to pace myself. If I remain in this system much longer a part if me will die.

Okay. So it is get on your knees time.

Now, play nice. LOL

XOXOXO,

Duckie

10:11 PM | Blog it

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	Carriewrote: I am still praying that special place will come to you. So wonderful to hear the joy in your voice at the thought of getting back out on your own again. Hugs and keep the feet going Carrie Sept. 8
	Theresawrote: Oh I hope it all works out according to your plans! Sept. 7
	lottemaewrote: good luck ... hope you find your new home soon. hugs, lottemae Sept. 7
	michael vale seniorwrote: Dont rush into it take a good look round good luck to you. Sept. 7
	gwrote: I pray that you find your home fast and that it will be just perfect for you, Eileen. Sept. 5
	Ianwrote: Keep smiling and keep your sense of humour , it will all come good dear friend I am sure Your apartment will appear soon as you have a great positive personality Ian aka Emu Sept. 5
	Happy Flowerwrote: I'm rooting for you Duckie! I love the spirit of your determination! Sept. 5
	Paulwrote: Hi Duckie. Landlords love to find dependable people to rent to. Here's hoping you luck into a place quickly. The closer to the shore you get the higher the price. Where are you looking? Glad you saw your mom. Sept. 4
	Sheilawrote: What a lovely visit seeing your mum and the lovely memories you both share. Good luck with the apartment Duckie you are in my prayers. It is out there somewhere just waiting for you. Take care of yourself xx Sheila Hugs Sept. 4
	Angel eyes dreamerwrote: glad you have that car your lifeline angel eyes Sept. 3
	Grandpa Dewey Dwrote: I would give anything to be able to visit with my mother, I am glad for you. "Keep the feet moving and you will keep moving" T he old streetwalker told you this. I gave up my car almost two years ago, it was hard at first, but now I really dont miss it. I enjoy riding in the backseat. Prayers will be saoid that you find that dream home. Sept. 3
	Palla-Janewrote: I just know you will make it Eileen - hang in there lass! Know that I send good vibes to you, and pray that you will soon have that apartment. Love 'n hugs to you. Sept. 3
	Annwrote: You'll be fine. you're right - the place is waiting for you. Hang in there. Sept. 3
	··¤ SETHwrote: Greetings to you my Darling Duckie... It's surprising how much memory is built around things unnoticed at the time. Hold on to your memories, they are good ones and even the ones that are not so good... they remind us of who we are, where we have come from and perhaps in a small way, they have even helped make us who we are today! I am sure that your mother really enjoyed your visit with her... :o) Good luck with your apartment search, I will be sitting here hoping that something good comes your way. Too many people go through life waiting for things to happen instead of making them happen! All the more power to you!! Forget about all the reasons why something may not work. You only need to find one good reason why it will and then try it. And hey, I have a bunk for you should you need it. As long as you can do laundry, we can work something out for rent! wink wink Sept. 3
	Ramblingwrote: Loved the reading of your visit with your mother..and now..I see Steppin Fetchit with that phrase in your title. Sept. 3
	Lizzie-Beth4Him Reflectionswrote: Praying God will meet your needs and desires of the heart as only He can! Sept. 3
	Suewrote: I hope you find just the right place for you, glad you had a good visit with your Mum Take care Sue Sept. 3
	Joewrote: I sometimes feel that I'm watching a butterfly come out of the cocoon with you my friend. You are moving right along to being just where you want to be and I couldn't be happier for you in that. Sometimes getting there to where we need to be can be a long process but I believe it's worth it. God bless you. Sept. 3
	Grandma's Many Blessingswrote: On my knees...praying for that perfect apartment for you. It is time for our Duckie to fly free. Sending you BIG HUGS ~Karin~ Sept. 3
	Conniewrote: Sounds like you had a wonderful visit with your mother. I will be praying for you to find a place to move, that you meet that Oct. 1st deadline. Sept. 2

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